falling without warning
like thick grey snowflakes
permanently frozen
sucking me under
frosting my windshield
swerving me off the road
into a safe ditch
no more travel today
my mind shuts down
and simple choices become
a herculean effort
laughter and jokes turn to
ugly noise
amplified by nerves on edge
physical touch is painful
friendly advances seem threatening
eyes can't focus on reality
when the flurries come
sometimes I can make them melt
not today
today it is a blizzard
no tools for escape
hands fall numb and heavy
no help but to sleep
and hope to wake tomorrow
to sunshine
{does any of this ring true for you? if so, there is hope! you can get help...I did. don't give up, dear sister...there is a plan for your life!}